THINKING

THINKING ABOUT MY MA.
MAKES ME SAD, HOPEFULL, TIRED, LONLEY.
I AM 46 AND MY MA DIED IN JULY OF 2004.
SHE WAS MY ROCK, OH LORD HOW I MISS HER.
SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.
TO LISTEN, CRY, ADVISE.
I KNOW I WILL SEE HER AGAIN.
IN HEAVEN.
I AM SAVED, AND HAVE JESUS IN MY HEART AS MY PERSONAL SAVIOR.
BUT I MISS HER RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW....
MY BROTHER DIED IN 2004 AND MY DAD JUST DIED IN MAY OF 2006.
I WILL SEE THEM TOO.
BUT THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT A MA, SOMETHING THAT MAKES THIS EMPTY PIT IN MY HEART. A PIT THAT JUST CAN'T FILL UP.
I AM A MA MYSELF TO A 19 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER AND A 24 YEAR OLD SON.
THEY BOTH LIVE HERE WITH MY 2ND (AND LAST) HUSBAND.
MY SON HAS CEREBRAL PALSY, HE IS 6 TO 12 MONTHS OLD DEVELOPMENTALLY.
SO HE IS AN ADULT TRAPPED IN A BODY THAT HAS NEVER WORKED RIGHT.
BUT HE IS MY ANGEL. MY MA JUST LOVED HIM TO BITS.
WELL, I MISS MY MA.
AND I ALWAYS WILL.